God Understood Realized
Just so I set this up properly. This question seems worth sharing. “What if god cannot be Understood only realized. Is that still god?” This piece is an exploration of that question. The following was my response to the question on a social media platform, expanded a little, and I think it might spark some deeper thinking in contemplating your next move. We’re in process of the ‘new normal,’ right? At least it will provide for some interesting reading….
Do you want to know what truth is? By that I mean truth about our nature, our Being. I hope so. It seems most folks don’t care. They like being guided by external forces they believe they can trust. The real truth can truly set you free to explore your world without constraint because it comes from inside us. What? Yes.
I’m going to share something and hope those who see it as incredulous will open their minds a little. The considerations are from experience and not theory, although some are contained therein. I’m sure it will raise some questions and perhaps provide some points to consider further. I trust my gut (first brain) in sharing poignant pieces.
As you’re about to see, my inquiry into self started as a kind of right of passage. It was unique for a teenager which made it challenging to be understood by adults. Is it normal to pray to know truth, be willing to die for it and really mean it? As a transformational coach now, that commitment led me into a rare and transcendent life on the inside. Few go there, which is why my clients really love the process of tapping into their own inner worlds. I open a lot of doors for them and its tough to encapsulate that in a review.
Passage… is it a right?
In 1975 I’d retuned to college after quarter break, heart-broken and seeking solace beyond this world. I hit my knees and prayed to know truth and a willing to literally give up my life to know it; God understood and realized. The impact of ‘be careful what you ask for’ hit hard. The event instilled an understanding that we, human beings, are cosmic consciousness condensed into form.
This individuation from the Great Light of infinite intelligence and formative capacity condenses into a single point of individuated and purposeful consciousness. It’s still connected, though so distantly we are usually unaware unless something ignites our desire for self-awareness. Google ‘Messy Antic Complex’ for full report.
Over a decade later and after another heart-breaking experience, 1989 to be specific, I was introduced to a technique called ‘Multi-level Awareness’ (William Swygard 1950s) where a facilitator leads the session with prompts to explore various realms within. I’d done several sessions prior.
Although I had no intention specifically to address a question about the origins of the ‘trinity’ strewn across our religions and society; apparently it was time for the reveal. Funny what emotional trauma will prompt in our growth and questions about the reality we think we know. Our vulnerability is a key witness.
In those prior sessions I’d corroborated what I though could be possible, that there are processes that assist entering one’s deeper experience to a more connected network of intelligence. It relates to that question above and if one were prone to the fear, guilt, blame and shame game, could be self-damaging instead of rewarding. It isn’t a question of sanity, it’s a question of experience and vulnerability.
The final piece is trusting your experience and the intuitive prompts that come. In indigenous traditions, they call it the ‘First Brain,’ where creation connects vibrationally in our solar plexus. I think it’s misspelled and should be ‘soular’ plexus and a source for God to be understood and realized within.
Nowhere to Now Here
We began the session with the standard self-hypnosis technique of creating a light body and projecting my consciousness into it for travel, with no expectations as to where. One of the key components is learning how to set the analytical mind aside and just experience the moment. We tend to over-analyze strange things instead of engaging or experiencing them without concern or fear.
The safety and security of the environment allows this for some; to explore without analysis. In the final moments of the preparation process, my ‘guide’ (whom I’d known since just after the 1975 event) showed up unexpectedly on the inner screen and invited me to ‘come’ with him with a wave of his hand. So I did.
Just to clarify and reference, I was reading a lot of material after my experience. Mom taught Evelyn Wood speed reading so I learned it early and was able to devour a lot in a short time. Castaneda’s works were among them, which is where I first learned of ‘guides.’ After Zephyr’s beckoning and immediately sensing we were in motion, his astral image changed from human to a ball of light with his face profiled on the front of it.
He had a nose like Jimmy Durante. I had no idea where we were going and, after asking and being told to just ‘wait and see’ we had a recap conversation about the years in between our last conversation. Before I knew it we arrived at our destination. I felt like Ellie seeing the universe laying before her, an awe that opens one to near tears of joy.
In front of me was a three-sun system with about a dozen bright green and much smaller planets in orbit, much like our solar system. The sight was so amazing it was caught up in the awe of the moment. Next thing I ‘hear’ are at least three voices as one: “We are not only your forefathers, we are also the forefathers of your solar system.”
I started to ask questions and was halted by my guide with, “That’s all you get. You’ll figure it out.” Figure what out? Now I had more questions than answers. I don’t know about you. I love to have questions. It unleashes the insatiable curiosity within me, still; to know truth.
Back we came engaged in a deeper level of conversation about my personal progress of aligning with my perfected form, fit and function in the world, and still with no direct answers about how what had just happened fit in the process. What I did know is that the trip there and back took the same amount of time, so there was consistency. How we went was somehow connected to some kind of hyper-drive that took us across the universe. Where we went seemed like the center of creation.
God Realized Understood
My research and paying attention to the facts that are shown before me gave me some insight that this experience built upon. I mused over one of the models with a three-fold flame representing our core essence. I thought about the symbol I’d been shown, a hexagram with a 666 in the upper triangle and a 999 in the lower one.
The thought also brought up the notion of a ‘trinitized’ body; one that was somehow energized by the open connection to ‘Source,’ if you will. I needed a scientific model and with the question came the image of an atom, with a proton, electron and neutron. The infinite intelligence driving the bus was in the space, the ‘dark matter’ we know is there and cannot see, yet.
My first question was regarding how the macro-model fit into the micro-model, as I knew fractals are embedded everywhere. I knew the 666 as the ‘number of man’ and it seemed to point to the carbon atom as proof. If this ‘trinitized’ form existed, would it naturally reveal our ‘perfected’ form, fit and function in the world? Hmmm… Do we even consider that question in our daily lives or professional endeavors or relationships?
So how does this answer the original question: “What if god cannot be Understood only realized. Is that still god?”
It would seem that the combination of self-actualization (form) and self-realization (consciousness) gives an experience of a near-godlike quality, at least. like we are truly connected to reality in ways we cannot imagine yet. Some say we are gods and goddesses in embryo, children as it were. I personally think the term ‘God’ gets folks confused and continues a separative notion that doesn’t belong, in my opinion. We need to question our beliefs, potentially finding solace in the truth.
Preponderance of Evidence
Think of the thousands if not millions of years of evolution, both biological and in consciousness (perhaps spiritual) that it would take to develop that depth of awareness and actually live in it. The growth in self-awareness and quantum sciences reflect very similar patterns and that, perhaps, we live in God as God lives in us. We just can’t grok it, yet. One of my clients expressed that I was like a master puzzle maker:
The dynamics and potentialities of positive outcomes defy logic. Logic even mathematicians and philosophers have long pondered. Something even Richard Feynman didn’t have enough time and still needed to examine, Quantum Love. What would it be like to meet the actual FUTURE puzzle makers themselves? This is what it is like to meet with Zen and his work.
And to that end, I created a couple of videos that sum the evidence up succinctly, I think. The first part came months ago as I was pondering how to assist the ‘new normal’ evolving in our world after the pandemic. The second, after being introduced to Wilbert Smith’s book, The New Science, and the inclusion of ‘nothingness’ mentioned by people from elsewhere. The book contains incomplete memoirs published in 1964, a couple of years after his death. I can only say the material, even incomplete, is profound. Here’s the video of the combined pieces if you’re interested.
Great question, by the way, “What if god cannot be Understood only realized. Is that still god?” God understood realized, our future puzzle.