Who’s Show Is It Anyway?
Often the messenger gets hung up on the message and becomes its icon rather than a simple conduit of information. I was no different. A few years later, I was busy with family, job and planning a future. I busied myself for the next decade until the cosmic 2×4 came swinging through my life – another new awakening for tempering the mettle of one’s character. Elucidations on enlightenment often include euphemisms.
Since that time, I’ve observed that identity is really of no consequence in the delivery of new information or clarification of the mysterious in order for the ‘magic’ of life to become present. Too often identity, assumed or projected, simply gets in the way. Our minds want to categorize and label instead of just listening and observing. The paradox is that sometimes critical information is in a name or the identification. Identity does make a difference.
We allow those who instruct us to continue the lie that we are separate from creation and need to give our power to someone else as our intercessor. Is this the kind of sense we seek to make common? Or, do we want to understand the mysteries of creation and just how connected we really are to knowing our identity as a spiritual being, a conscious co-creator?
In my continued studies, I’ve found the former to be the opposite of what was intended. Even in the Bible one can find reference to the magnitude of intention, “Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?” And from the Dead Sea Scrolls, “Don’t ye know that ye are god as I am god” Now that got me thinking. It totally flipped my point of view. Still, as Nietzsche puts it… ‘God wants playmates.’ How cool is that?
If those statements are true, then how can or could we verify it in our own experience? I had a sense it was going to be a very interesting journey. What could I offer others of my discoveries without drawing a crowd? Or did I want to draw a crowd? Nowadays crowd surfing is an ‘in’ thing. What if it is my destiny to become a front man, so to speak, in sharing a new view?
My own experience was a lunatic fringe to the common folk, so I had to come to terms with being comfortable in my weirdness. That didn’t mean that I kept out of sight, quite the opposite. I learned how to stand out in a crowd without saying a word, much to the chagrin of whoever I was with at the time. One of my favorites is an amazingly colorful marbleized tuxedo, reminiscent of Jason’s amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.
Over the years opportunity knocked and I walked through the door, over and over, until I had several degrees in business, certifications in teaching, hypnotherapy and transformational life coaching as well as a history of achievements that most people might not accomplish in ten lifetimes. I was not concerned about savings or retirement.
Why? I focused on the chance to learn, to stretch my inner and outer understanding, to jump into things I wanted to experience when the doors of opportunity opened – and they did regularly as long as I kept my heart open. The law of attraction was operating nicely, even before I knew there was one.
When I was approaching my 50s, a First Nation friend informed me that in their tradition one had to be 51 before he could participate in any council activity. That milestone means one can now share their understanding and wisdom because they’ve lived long enough to garner it. You see, their tradition requires one to grow to know the secrets of human emotions and our connections to Great Spirit before ever claiming to be a wise man.
In all these trials and tribulations, though, there came to be simple salient points of order that are strewn throughout all religions and spiritual paths as guideposts to finding freedom from self-deception. What I find more challenging is self-acceptance. To grow into what we truly are is the goal.
Dudley Lynch, President of Brain Technologies, Inc. called me a “Possibilities Coagulator” some years ago. It is my hopes that you, too, will become a ‘possibilities coagulator’ as you grow to know the secrets of connecting to your galactic heritage.
Ultimately, I just want to share that simple path to freedom from the self-deception of being anything less than a child of the universe. I think you will enjoy the process, in spite of the turmoil of the past and maybe even some that will come as you get over yourself in the present and progress through these posts. I’ll be sharing the tasty tidbits from years of trials and tribulations. They are all in a workbook called Cosmic Conundrum: Who Am I?
Your Door to ‘What Is’
“In the realm of human destiny, the depth of man’s questioning is more important than his answers.”
What is in it for you?
In starting any self-awareness or self-development program the first concern on nearly everyone’s mind is, “How can this person help?” or “What is in it for me?” are standard inquiries. What’s this ‘door to what is’ thing? I hope to make that clear as we move through this process. It will be one that will empower you to be more authentic and make better choices in your life.
Some of the following may seem incredulous and don’t forget that truth is often stranger than fiction. My life is living proof and I’m still seeking answers to explain some experiences.
Let me give you a quick thumbnail. If you need more information, you can search Zen Benefiel on the Web and the results would keep you occupied for weeks. Please feel free to check. Here’s a piece on the Southwest Institute of Healing Arts website.
As an orphan and adoptee with an insatiable curiosity and penchant for pushing the limits of reality, I apparently opened a door in my psyche very young that allowed paranormal experiences to fill my life. I enjoy them still, yet the challenge is the harmonization of inner and outer realities, crafting a niche in the world that aligns and rewards passion and purpose for and with people, places and things. To put it simply – finding form, fit and function in this reality.
This curiosity was initiated by a voice that called out to me shortly after my fifth birthday. It was distinct and loud, yet was inaudible to anyone else around me. A few years later I began having nightly excursions, observing my physical body from a different point of view that took me into an orange cigar-shaped cloud hovering over a field next to my home in rural Indiana, near Muncie.
Those nightly excursions happened numerous times over a two-year period. It wasn’t until years later that I discovered the ‘cloud’ was the most common ‘contactee’ experience during that time period, according to Ruth Montgomery’s Aliens Among Us. It was also included in Strangers Among Us. Admittedly, the childhood I had was different than most.
Then in my late teens just after the beginning of my second quarter in college I got hit with the proverbial, “Who am I?” and “What am I here to do?” scenario. For many that is the first period of serious questioning regarding life, but not everyone has it. It came at a time of serious emotional trauma.
I prayed to know what truth was and a week later during a meditation I was asked, by the same voice I’d heard years earlier, if I was willing to die for what I believed in. My first response was, ‘Oh, shit!’ but I believed in Cosmic Consciousness as the ultimate truth and said, “Yes.” I felt safe and secure in that.
To keep the story short, I left my body, turned to see it as I moved away, looked back to see where I was going and found myself engulfed in white light immediately. I felt like I was HOME beyond comprehension. After realizing I wasn’t ‘dead,’ but this ‘Light’ was void of anything else other than the sense of unconditional love, I asked if there was more.
I felt a movement, found myself surrounded by points of light on an indigo background, and as soon as I realized these were points of consciousness the ‘voice’ explained my relationship to them and my purpose – to facilitate harmony among people and planet. What is a teenager supposed to do with that? There is more here.
A little over a decade later I experience an excruciating divorce, wave goodbye to my children and spiral into the rabbit hole for a year or so. It started one full moon night in June, just before my birthday, when a friend of mine and I were conversing outside our guest house he was renting for a short time.
Our conversation, deeper than usual, fell quiet and I closed my eyes and prayed silently, “Who am I?” I was overwhelmed when he turned to me and said out loud, “You are Zendor.” I was spellbound for a moment, with a quick vision that accompanied the words almost instantly. How does one ‘deal’ with that? A couple of years later I had the opportunity to use it wisely.
More in the next installment. 🙂
Opening Your Door to Self
Objectives, Expectations and Ground Rules
Fulfillment: a feeling of satisfaction at having achieved your desires. A connectedness one senses with the Divine or a greater part of reality that exists.
Self: internal spark of life, the Divine within
This coursework and material is designed to facilitate practical understanding and use of the natural processes of your emotional and spiritual transformation that lead toward personal fulfillment.
You will find your Self (spiritual being) as a result. Men and women process information differently. We define ourselves by how we think and feel, even at subconscious levels we may not be aware of just yet.
But what of the Self? How do we move beyond petty self-motivated emotions to divinely-generated sensations? How do we get beyond the polarity paradigm that keeps us in the pendulum swing?
Men have been taught that they must not appear weak or vulnerable throughout history. Sharing deep intimate feelings tends to reveal vulnerability, so men often hide behind stoic expressions that are difficult to read. There is great strength in being gentle and vulnerable. The release of attachments allows one to be available to the cosmic consciousness within and, believe it or not, it shows through the eyes for anyone to see.
Women are known to be far more global in perspective, yet family sensitivities often inhibit the release of attachment necessary to enter the cosmic domains. There are no stoic looks with this gender because of emotional programming, yet there is a desire to be seen; inviting inquiry when the need arises.
The processes within this coursework will help identify and release the psychic cording that often happens to individuals for a variety of reasons. Your life stories aren’t important at this point, although let’s honor them in getting you here now.
We will analyze and examine the process of feeling and thinking so that you become more aware, aligning with your cosmic destiny and able to manage your emotions, making better choices toward achieving goals. The result will be some pragmatic processes for your quiver, sand box, tool box, or daily drive.
The weekly layout is only to provide a foundation for the process. Any endeavor of this type, transformative or not, needs structure for effective delivery. Just stay with me on the path for a bit and you’ll gain from the experience.
Concepts are explained in order to give a consistent understanding of the information. You will be exposed to the practice of several processes that open the door to your emotional freedom, a prerequisite for creating the life you desire. Balanced living often results from addressing the polarities of personal desires and social responsibility.
Daily living environments include a plethora of choices and stimuli vying for our attention. You will learn how to pay attention better and eliminate the distractions and interruptions of the ego so the Self emerges as a natural movement from self to Self. You have no doubt felt that connection already.
The freedom from anger, fear, guilt, shame or other immobilizing emotional attachment allows you to make choices in your best interest. Choices that are in your best interest align all the spiritual concepts and components of life and living toward achieving fulfillment and experiencing joy.
Fulfillment varies from individual to individual; the subtle and sublime sensation of gratitude and reverence for All That Is are a sure sign of it. Joy and serenity are results of success in life, love, service and/or work.
Weekly Assignments: Assignments include exercises, journaling and written papers of approximately two typed pages in length. Of course you can hand write them if you desire. The completion of this workbook will show you how clearing your emotions and igniting the imagination can get you closer to experiencing fulfillment on a more regular basis.
Your cosmic connection, soular blueprint and natural psychospiritual abilities await your discovery and integration.
Important terms are defined at the beginning of each section. It’s up to you to actually do the work. If you have doubts, you’re normal. If you move beyond the doubts, you’ve achieved freedom. If you follow your dreams, you’ll challenge all doubt.
We need to be clear regarding the processes you are about to experience. Your benefit from this coursework will depend on your openness to exploring concepts and practicing exercises. You have to be willing to explore the depths of the ocean of emotion within you. It’s all energy, so just flow with it.
Transformation happens automatically through doing the exercises and practicing the techniques. A good sense of humor will go a long way. Caution: taking yourself seriously is painful.
I stumbled upon an interesting insight a few years ago. The challenge is to change… whatever that may be. Challenge and change are only three letters different.. the ‘lle’ removed creates change. Well, consider this as the ‘lle’ expanded: liabilities, limitations and excuses. Might we transcend to lightness, lumination and execution?
When we remove those liabilities, limitations and excuses from our life, our thoughts, our working relationships – change happens automatically. We ‘shift’ from the old way – habits, patterns and subjective beliefs – to being available for intelligent insights that move us toward a better life and fulfillment.
Journaling empowers the transformation process because it gives you proof of how your feelings and thoughts change. Journaling allows you to write in a stream of consciousness without filtering your thoughts. You will be asked to journal daily about your process; the feelings, insights and thoughts that are relative to awareness and the coursework.
If you currently journal, please be inclusive in your course volume. Journaling is a great process for self-awareness. Apathy is your worst enemy and clearest sign change is necessary.
Your Personal Council Awaits
We all know the importance of having a mentor or mentors in life and professional environments. The style and type of mentor is generally chosen for professional reasons. Do you have any now? What are they like? Let’s discuss mentors for a bit here. The specific instances may not apply to your personal life, but the essence of mentorship is quite helpful to explore.
Learning how to ask the right questions, especially in serving a purpose, is one of the keys to success. Mentors help to guide one in the direction of their best interests for personal and professional benefit. Knowing more about leadership allows one to grow in their ability to lead both self and others. I prefer a mentor as a master teacher, a confidant; one who stretches my ability to conceive of ways to accomplish goals with increasing ethical foundations that can be shared with others in the process.
I prefer a mentor that has depth, is able to share insights into human dynamics and problem solving while asking me to consider the same. Because of my awareness of psychospiritual mechanisms, I also prefer a mentor who has at least an open mind and shares their own personal discoveries in the moment, creating opportunity for discussion and reflection. A mentor leads you to ask better questions about yourself and the world around you.
A mentor shares a variety of ways to ask pertinent questions that reveal opportunities to garner support and strength in partnering, moving groups toward achievement and excellence in performance. Mentors have contributed greatly to my life and well-being, increasing my sense of fulfillment and connectedness to life in general.
Knowing that mentors are a great benefit, we don’t always have access to them when we most need them. So how can you have access when you need their guidance? This next exercise is designed to help you create your own council of mentors. Acquiring these mentors for this purpose is quite easy. Just imagine them in your head, using your visualization to create the scenery. They can be living or dead because in your imagination there are no boundaries.
Pick a mentor/hero/inspiration for each of the twelve areas of your chart
Twelve Views of your Council and their Characteristics:
1. Being – a strong natural presence, with solid ethics, morals, and values.
2. Having – shows others the gifts life can offer by example.
3. Local Learning – demonstrated learning in immediate environment.
4. Root/Home – firmly rooted in their center, confident and serene.
5. Personal Expression – achieved their dream with natural passion.
6. Service/Sacrifice/Self-Transformation – served humanity with their life.
7. Intimate Others/Close Friend/Family – you honor and respect.
8. Partnership Results – demonstrated success through collaboration.
9. Higher Learning – pioneered education, discipline, or mentorship.
10. Work – success through applying abilities, skills and talents.
11. Public Expression – impacted the lives of many through their public life.
12. Mystery – successful through synchronistic or serendipitous events.
Two formats are provided for recording your inquiries and results. The first is an in-depth view of your personal responsibility based on self-knowledge and your willingness to accept constructive advice. The second is event or situation specific, allowing you to explore the choices for action. Take time to journal at the end of the exercise.
Long Format: Ask each to tell you your worst (personal weaknesses), your best (personal strengths), and how you can improve your skills from their point of view. This is an extremely powerful tool. It can offer a tremendous gift if you are willing to review the information openly, allowing yourself to be vulnerable in the comfort of your own private space. This is particularly nice if you like to keep your inner processing and thoughts private. The council already knows you deeply and can reflect many things that your normal processing might have missed. There is no time limit to the meeting. Make sure to journal about the process.
Short Format: Pick a few mentors relative to the specific area you need help and ask each to give their view of how you can perform in a specific situation, problem, event, opportunity, etc. Reflect on the information each gives you, like using conversational clarifiers or a reflection of what you understood. This allows you to completely relax without having to think about taking notes. It also helps in the journaling process afterward, which must be done in order for the process to have maximum effect. Journal afterward.
Once a week or when you are in need of counsel, call the twelve together in your mind and ask for their advice. You can construct a collage of pictures in order to visualize them more easily. It is important to make this meeting special, giving yourself time alone and uninterrupted. Ritualize the occasion (incense, candles, special garment, whatever will mark the process as being set apart from the routine of your life) Praise your mentors for their hero-hood, and thank them all for their past service, and in advance for what you are about to receive. Anticipation of phenomenal results adds to the experience. Begin by closing your eyes and taking a few deep breaths to relax and prepare. All you are doing is having a conversation that is focused on you.
If you are uncomfortable or overwhelmed with such a large council, just create what is comfortable to you. The actual number of mentors is totally up to you. The point is that you make the attempt to create your council and work with it until you are comfortable in knowing it is available. This experiment can transcend your current cache of direct experience. Boundaries can disappear between worlds, physical and non-physical, if you let them. The four components: ask, believe, allow and receive.
‘Stubbing My TOE on Purpose’ is discovery and exploration of a theory of everything that includes finding one’s life purpose. In this book I’ve attempted to share a story with an expanded view of reality. It would be super cool if you’d share it.
SMToP is a combination of experience, research and synthesis of life’s conundrums and potential answers. I’ve been told it is engaging and yet not overladen with details, which is the nemesis of a storyteller… too many details.
Author Bruce ‘Zen’ Benefiel offers a healthy dose of spiritual wisdom for an “out-of-this-world” reader experience. Some dynamics which make this book a helpful guide are the author’s out-of-body experiences, his education and unique intelligence, combined with (but not limited to) an aptitude for research, diverse content synthesis and organization for reflection of his experience.
Zen embraces psychological, scientific, intuitive and mystical explanations, deepening the experience of “flow,” and more.
Woven by the common thread of his mystical experiences, Zen continually provides insightful logic regarding the ultimately inevitable connections among science and spirituality, connecting within, and galactic citizenry. Meaningful personal stories from the author’s physical life experience are steeped in wisdom. That said; the author’s emotional vulnerability is a great asset to humanizing the mystical experiences he lives out.
Zen’s authentic sharing creates a good foundation for us (the readers) to contemplate and realize the unique reality to which we have embraced and have been exposed. The book reveals compelling evidence that we can each go beyond our normal waking consciousness to connect in higher and finer ways.
The author’s knowledge of mental-emotional transformational methodologies makes for well-explored and deeply penetrating lessons.
The capacity SMToP has for introducing new thought as well as corroborating the lesser talked about experiences of others is one of my goals. I feel it is a seminal view of consciousness, cosmology and the congruence of science and spirituality.
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